New Year : 2022, with Emily in Paris

Love at the first scene with this one!

I made the right decision to celebrate my new year's eve and welcome 2022. Haven't seen any delightful, easy yet inspiring movie enough for these few moments. I love Emily in Paris since the first episode, Emily characters, the costume, the vibes, it just all good! Her character is the one I inspired the most. Her cheerful and creativity also her independence yet charming, soooo mindblowing. Also got a lil throwback to that moment when I was in college with Titis and Ajeng brought things about France and they introduced me to French movies with the sad or anti-climatic ending which as in Emily in Paris called by French Ending.

not surprised knowing that Patricia Field was the one behind Emily fashion statements

It took me back to my young self when I watch the series. The marketing communication thing, the fashion passion, and all the positive-independent character of her really mesmerized me! Those are the life I dreamt about. Start the series on Dec 31st, finish by tonight Jan 2nd, and obsessed with the 3rd session already!

Can't wait to see her!

A lil update about me, I'm starting to do journaling as a part of my healing process. And I am thankful to Rose who brings me the Self Hug Journal to make this resolution more real -yay! Wish I can pass this 2022 good, know myself deeper, and love myself better.

Happy New Year to you too! Cheers to the more wise and content human being of us.

Ps. someone just made my day and he's truly a blessing :) hope you are blessed too.

xx,

eby

This Wondrous Sunset

Jerman Beach, 26 Dec 2021

rewrite :

It's start with late replies, then ignored messages. The distance becomes greater and the talking becomes less frequent. Every time your phone lights up you hope it's them or at least, you wish it was them. If not checking up on you, just saying anything at all. Because yesterday you asked them how they were, and day before yesterday you asked them how they were, and the day before that too. And how much more can you do right? how long the conversation be one sided?

So you start to care less about what they do but fragments of them linger in your head. "what did i do so wrong?" you didn't. There's nothing wrong with you at all. People change, when their needs changes. But remember the times they were nice to you and were there for you instead of the bitter memories. It's hard to accept but, they've done their job in your life. Everyone who walks in has a purpose and when they accomplish that, they leave. Don't be disheartened, for every person that walks out; someone better will walk in. But the cycle will repeat. You're just going to have to learn how to be ok with it.

Ps. to the one who introduced this beach and lots of places in South Bali; i'll cherish all the moments you were nice to me and were here for me.

After a long space.

Diantara banyaknya hari, sudah lama aku tidak benar-benar merasakan rasanya jatuh. Kali ini rasanya sangat indah sekaligus menyakitkan -mungkin karena sudah terlalu lama tidak. Aku jatuh pada hati yang salah, hati yang hanya menjadikanku tempat singgah beristirahat lalu diujung jalan berdalih sebagai kakak yang menyayangi adiknya -belakangan aku bahkan tak merasa dia menyayangiku sebagai adik. Dia ada saat aku bukanlah aku yang seharusnya, aku yang terpuruk dan hancur oleh diriku sendiri kala itu. Ntah ini hanya perspektifku yang naif, kadang kupikir dia hanya dipinjamkan Tuhan untukku di masa terpurukku, dan lalu sekarang aku tidak boleh serakah dan menyerahkannya kepada Afu yang sedang terpuruk juga.

Ya, sepertinya dia jatuh -perlahan namun semakin dalam- pada Andhyta F. Utami. Seseorang yang saat kau buka profil sosial medianya akan membuatmu berdecak kagum, untuk kasusku aku juga melakukan hal yang sama sekaligus membuatku merasa duniaku runtuh. Yang kucintai adalah The Nudibranch with a blue whale's heart bagi Afu. 

Perasaan tidak aman itu begitu menyiksaku, bagaimana aku secara sadar dan terang-terangan membandingkan diriku dengan Afu yang jelas-jelas tidak boleh kulakukan -atau siapapun lakukan. Tapi itu terus terjadi; bahwa aku tidak lebih pintar dan berprestasi darinya, aku tidak semenarik dirinya karena membuat mas pergi begitu saja setelah menghabiskan hampir 36 minggu bersama, aku tidak sebijak dan sedewasa dia, bahwa aku terlalu dangkal, dan menyedihkan. Logika ku mengatakan ini tidak sehat, tapi aku terus terpuruk di dalam pemikiran ini untuk beberapa saat. Ini patah hati yang juga menghancurkan kepercayaan diriku di level yang cukup tinggi. Aku kembali menghancurkan diriku sendiri.

Sampai aku berada di tahap mengikhlaskan yang mana ternyata mungkin belum sepenuhnya. Aku iri melihat mereka, tepatnya aku iri melihat mas begitu mendamba Afu : tidak sabar menunggu balasan chatnya, tidak bisa menahan senyum saat sedang chat dengannya, terlihat kesepian dan lelah namun begitu menerima chatnya bisa mendadak bersemangat, Afu adalah dunianya, sementara dia sempat menjadi duniaku (bahkan mungkin masih tapi aku hanya berusaha merasa tidak). Aku iri seolah semua orang berbahagia dan hanya aku yang tidak, walaupun aku tau tidak seperti itu kenyataannya. Kepribadianku senang memainkan peran sedih tak berkesudahan ntah kenapa, yang mana itu menyiksaku -juga.

Akankah aku menjadi cukup bagi seseorang suatu hari nanti? Akankah aku menjadi cukup untuk diriku sendiri tanpa harus kubandingkan dengan orang lain? Akankah aku menjadi dunia seseorang yang adalah duniaku suatu hari nanti? Manusia terlalu serakah, aku seharusnya bersyukur karena masih bisa merasakan lagi jatuh seperti ini. Tetapi yang kulakukan adalah terus berharap dia akan melihatku suatu hari nanti.

Aku tahu, suatu hari nanti rasa ini akan pergi. Dan aku akan baik-baik saja.

a Little Hello in the Midnight!

 Whoa, it's been 4 years since my last post. And after a long long hiatus, i'm using this platform again to reminiscing yet to running my small lil business 😋 Lol thought you know what i mean. Yas am using my personal blog as one of the marketing tool of my food outlet. 

So, nowadays using a barcode is so common for not only adding someone social media as a friend, but also to easily share all the things in internet such as an online article, or maybe for me i'm using barcode to show the menu.

You guys can find it on this blog section named "snack", i'm going to change the wishlist there into my food outlet menu and using the webpage as the barcode.

Anywayyyy, today, 11.11.2020. , gonna be my first day running the outlet. Wish me luck!

I'll share some of the pic later. hehe.

xx,

Eby

Stay Healthy, Good People.

You might wondering how i spent the #88LoveLifeSOIREE because i won blog competition for #88LoveLife readers from Diana Rikasari like i wrote in this blog post. Buttt... there are no stories 😭😭😭 because i cannot go to that event.

The story begin with my boyfie that comin to town in Thursday, May 12nd. So after my happy post on Tuesday, a couple of days, he was coming and make me happier. I was picked him up on the bus station and everything went well. Until the next day after, after we spent a night watching AADC 2, i feel my pain in the ass like getting worse. It's really a pain in the ass, yea it's hemmorhoid. Mine is external hemmorhoid. So, around 11pm something, my boy drive me to the hospital, and there the doctor said i need to take surgery soon. I wish i could get the surgery on Saturday but unlucky me, it's possible to do in Monday. 

Finally i spent my weekend on the hospital and cancelled to go to #88LoveLifeSOIREE and only see all the pic from Kak Diana's IG and Denia's IG 😭😭

I never be in hospital as a patient in my whole life, and once i become a patient, it takes a lot of painful and strikely break my dreams to meet kak Diana also inhibit me for doing my thesis. With all those painful feeling, i promise will eat fruit and veggie more, less spicy food, and more water for sure. Doctor said my hemmorhoid is on stage III, and even thou it already taken, but if i did not change my food habit, i might come again.. 😣😷 oh please i won't let that happen again.

Blur pic taken by me 

😝

For you who have hemmorhoid in low level, please be aware, don't let this thing happen to you. Just do everything to stay healthy.

xxx,

Eby

Throwback Moment

It's a little throwback moment, when i did my first interview to Ersa Adiprasetya a.k.a Echa from Hey Echa ! for my final assignment which is not finished yet till now *drooling eyes*.
Anyway, this interview held in Lokal Hotel & Restaurant which lately known for AADC 2 shoot location.

A little review, i love all the menu here, because its taste good and not so expensive. I might loved to stay to their hotel too, because beside the colorful-abstract wallpaper, i just loved the architechture and design of the room type B or as known as Mezzanine Type. Its unique yet modern with its two floor in a room. I think i'm gonna make a bedroom like this hotel room someday :p

i never found a hotel room like this! They arrange iPhone 5 speakers & charger dock, so modern tho..

cozy and large living room. The most lovely patternize floor.

mini space for the working desk. pst, this room type having its own pool-view balcony. WOW!

Anyway, i also want to share some pic of mine and Echa 😄😄😄

only this pic had a high pixel tho..

I love all the dessert here too, on the picture above is Mint Mojito and sweet dessert (i'm forget the name 😁 ) consist of apple from malang, with caramel sauce and vanilla ice cream...

If you come to Jogjakarta, don't missed this resto for hang out or maybe try a night to stay.


cheers,
Eby♥

Thank God, it's #88LoveLifeSOIREE

Yesterday, was Monday, 9th May. As a monday, it must be a busy day. I still have responsibility as judges Liaison Officer of TATCC 2016 event on Sunday. Started the day with drove Coach Annie (Owner The A Team Cheerleading Company) to the airport with kak Sony (as second judge) on 8.00am, then accompany kak Sony strolling around Malioboro while waiting his train on 2.40pm. After doing farewell with my last judge, means my duty as judges LO is almost done (wait.. another job is preparing the financial accountability to my chairman of this event). After that, i helped my friend from Timika to do some Cash on Delivery. Because as a buyer (he bought a mobile phone), he's too far to checked up the phone directly, so there i go to helped him. After all the checklist done, suddenly I remind that the #88LoveLifeBlogCompetition is over, and maybe they already announce the winner! So....here is the big thrilling moment, i checked out the winners announcement on kak Diana instagram..

Yayyyy... i'm one of the winner! How excited i was when i read the announcement yesterday. But then, i decided to strolling this 9 ladies blogs that will be my Soiree-mate and give a little 'hello'. I believed, Kak Diana and kak Dinda, choose them all because they are wonderfull as kak Di mentioned above. Anddd.. they do wonderful! i read all them blog post about #88LoveLife review, they even better than me, they trully inspired by kak Diana thought a lot, and into kak Dinda illustrations so much. They just like me, a big fan of kak Di thought, some of them already followed kak Diana blog career since the beginning.

I'm so EXCITED! i wondering we'll have our chit chat together and maybe we can make friend in Jogja. Or maybe, what if we build Kak Diana fan base in Jogja? nice idea huh?

Okay then, i'll give you my best damn report after the Soiree! Thanks for my buddies that support me thru this competition, it mean a lot to me! :)

Today's Cheerleading Event

It's a busy yet happy day,  because as you seen at the poster above, The A Team Cheerleading Competition DIY Region 2016 has been accomplished today! Congratulations for Flash All Stars and all the crew for make it happen, and also congrats for all the winners that will goes to The A Team National Cheerleading Championship 2016 in Jakarta.

I'll give a report for the whole event soon after i got some pic to upload from documentation division, :) Thank you for supporting this event cheerleaders!

keep cheering,

eby

Up and Down, Just Get Up Stand Up!

When i see around, and found that all my girls are one step even two or three steps ahead. That's the moment when i feel so down, but in the other side i'm happy to see them happy and become a great woman in career or anything.

I realize this is my own problem and this is happen because of my fault too, so i have to bear the risk. I still have many lovely people around me that always cheer me up and give me their positive ion. So what i need to do now is get up, stand up, and cheer up! :)

So the first step is maybe i need an ice cream and i can feel better :)

"We all have problems. We all have time when we feel like killing ourselves. But there are just simply bad days just like there are good days. And it takes both to make a person. So take it easy and enjoy life. Bad days end up fun if you have a sense of humor."

-Diana Rikasari on #88LoveLife

xoxo,

eby

Meet the Blogger

Regarding to my final project in college to get my scholar title, i use to interview some readers of fashion blogger. As a communication student with ads & marcomm major, i should put something related with my major. So i decide to pick "Reader Response about Advertising in Fashion Blogs (Descriptive Qualitative Research Reader Response about Advertising in Afternoon Tea & Living Room blog). In my case, the readers who i want to interview with, are also blogger. The reason i choose them all is because the active reader who put more attention to a blog is also a blogger which doing 'blog walking' and usually they know more about blogsphere.

And here is some pics of me and my research subject :

Indah Purnamasari from Outfit Of My Day

Chintya Dewi form Daily Life (sorry for the blur pic)

Ade Kurnianingrum from This is Real and This is Me

Ersa Adiprasetra from Hey Echa !

Deyna Al Dila from im the only deyn you know (again, sorry for the blur pic)

Glad to met them all because i learn more about fashion blogging, got more friends with same hobbies as well. :)

So, i wish i can met them again not only as a interviewer but also as their friend for sure :)

Thank you a lot guys for your help.

Much love,

eby

Melasti & Tawur Agung sebagai Rangkaian Ritual Hari Raya Nyepi Saka 1936

Melasti sebagai salah satu bagian dari rangkaian ritual menjelang Hari Raya Nyepi bagi umat Hindu, memiliki makna menghilangkan kotoran diri dan jagat raya yang disimbolisasikan dengan labuhan sesaji ke laut serta menyucikan arca, pratima, nyasa, pranlingga sebagai wujud atau sthana Ida Sang Hyang Widhi Wasa dengan segala manifestasi-Nya (Source : PHDI). 

Nah, karena Nyepi tahun inipun aku masih di Yogyakarta, jadi aku mengikuti upacara Melasti yang diadakan di Pantai Parangkusumo (as always) pada hari Jumat, 30 Maret 2014 lalu. Puncak acara di Pantai Parangkusumo dilangsungkan dengan berbagai ritual keagamaan serta pembacaan doa. Ritual diakhiri dengan melabuh berbagai sesaji ke laut selatan. 

Setelah banten/ sesaji didoakan dan beberapa ritual awal dilaksanakan, seluruh umat Hindu yang hadirpun melakukan persembahyangan bersama. Dan seperti biasa, setelah persembahyangan diakhiri dengan nunas tirta seperti pada gambar diatas. Dimana umat diberi air yang sudah disucikan dan menggunakan bija/ beras di kening, dada, dan dimakan.

Ini dia puncak ritual melasti seperti yang sudah dijelaskan diawal, berbagai sesaji dilabuhkan ke pantai. Melasti biasanya menggunakan air sebagai simbolisasi pembersihan, sehingga kegiatan ritual ini berlangsung di pantai, dan juka jauh dari pantai dilakukan di sungai atau mata air yang dapat dijangkau dengan mudah. (Source : PHDI) 

Dan yang dilakukan oleh umat setelah melabuhkan sesaji adalah membersihkan kaki, tangan, serta muka menggunakan air pantai sebagai simbol membersihkan diri.

Setelah Melasti, ada rangkaian ritual lain yang dilakukan setelahnya, yaitu Tawur Agung Kesanga. Biasanya ritual ini dilakukan pada Tilem (bulan mati) terakhir sebelum Hari Raya Nyepi yang merupakan perayaan Tahun Baru Saka. Ritual ini dilangsungkan dengan tujuan membuat dan memohon kepada Tuhan untuk kesejahteraan alam lingkungan. Untuk perayaan Tawur Agung di Yogyakarta biasanya dilaksanakan di Candi Prambanan.

Ini tenda khusus pejabat, menteri agama hadir juga lho disini.

Setelah selesai persembahyangan

Ritual ini dilaksanakan di Area Wisnu Candi Prambanan

Baracuda adalah nama KMHD (Keluarga Mahasiswa Hindu Dharma) STIE YKPN di Yogyakarta

Menu sarapan sebelum ke Prambanan, Nasi Ayam Betutu by Warung Bu Komang :9

Well, of course i'm not gonna skip the selfie moment in this post, hehehe. All of picture here is taken by the awesome Lenovo S960 or known as Lenovo Vibe X ;)

Here's the before after pic about my hair. I do simply bun for daily templing, and i have a set of jepit bunga jepun in many colors so i can use it adjusting to my kebaya colors. This pic is for Melasti day.

My outfit of the day on Tawur Agung ritual.

Oke, mungkin sudah cukup aku bercerita tentang perayaan Nyepi ku yang ke-8 di Yogyakarta. Glad to having this post :)

Om Santi, Santi, Santi Om

Eby